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Book extract: Holiday Heart by Margarita García Robayo translated by Charlotte Coombe | reviews, news & interviews

Book extract: Holiday Heart by Margarita García Robayo translated by Charlotte Coombe

Book extract: Holiday Heart by Margarita García Robayo translated by Charlotte Coombe

Unusual diagnosis forms the heart of this timely exploration of race, class and the American Dream

Margarita García Robayo© Charco Press

Holiday heart, instead of sentimental love discovered on vacation, describes a faltering organ, overloaded from excess consumption: a heart at risk. In Margarita Garcia Robayo’s brilliantly observant, often sardonically pitched novel, the heart provides both a metaphor for the deterioration of the marriage of Lucia and Pablo, affluent Colombians who have made their lives and raised their children in the US, and the material fact of Pablo's diagnosis: the catalyst for the holiday on which Lucia takes her children. The subtle book that follows reflects on marriage, identity, nationality, and beyond to racism, class and the complex promise of the American Dream.

“Seeing as he has no history of heart disease, or anything in his heart that would lead us to diagnose any kind of anomaly, I can only conclude that it’s this syndrome…”

Margarita García Robayo holiday-heartAs soon as she was inside the hospital – even before going to see Pablo – Lucía headed straight for Ignacio’s office. He’d been her family doctor ever since she’d arrived in New Haven. Ignacio was Chilean but had lived there for decades, and during that time they’d established one of those friendships which enabled them to bypass all the red tape. So, as soon as she got the call from the hospital, she called Ignacio and asked him to check everything out. She was far too anxious to deal with some doctor who didn’t know her and who would certainly underestimate her need to know every minute detail about what was wrong with Pablo, and about any potential treatment.

Ignacio was now sympathetically explaining to her, with his elegant mannerisms and measured tone of voice, how arteries worked. On his desk was a small plastic heart sliced in half. He was pointing at it with a laser pen. After the lecture came the diagnosis: her husband was a goddamn party animal. Ignacio was telling her about a disease that affects the cardiovascular system and is caused by excessive consumption of alcohol, red meat, salt, saturated fat and certain drugs. An acquired disease rather than a congenital one, it occurs most commonly during the holiday season, when people get wasted and ignore their expanding waistlines.

“That’s where the name comes from.” Ignacio cleared his throat.


“Huh?”


The syndrome was called Holiday Heart.


A sentimental love song, thought Lucía.


A roadside motel with blinking neon lights.


“In Pablo’s case, this all appears to be accompanied by excessive and, I presume, risky sexual activity.” He cleared his throat again and Lucía, even in her confused state, had the urge to rummage in her handbag and find him a cough drop. “I’m sorry,” said Ignacio, then fell silent.

The silence nurtured the humiliation.

The office’s peach-coloured walls and the small picture frames adorning them – displaying photographs of caterpillars and butterflies that were either cutesy or pornographic, Lucía couldn’t decide which – all had more dignity than her at that moment. What was he sorry about? Was it really so obvious that the risky and excessive sexual activity did not involve her? And then, shattering the brief period of incomprehension due to Lucía’s narcissism, Ignacio revealed that Pablo had been brought to the hospital unconscious, accompanied by an underage girl.

The silence expanded in the seconds that followed, like a plague, building vast totems of humiliation.

Luckily, Pablo was fine, Ignacio said.


Luckily for who?


He went on: it had been a scare, a minor arterial obstruction that had been easy to fix with a stent. At his age, he was perhaps slightly young for a stent, but nowadays it was no biggie – “no biggie”, he said, and she was perturbed by that colloquial expression, like a gob of spit out of a cultivated mouth – lots of men had one, or several.

“Oh, really?”

Yes, Ignacio said. It was fairly common. As long as he took certain precautions, Pablo could return to normal life as soon as he wanted.

When she left the office, she still didn’t go and see Pablo. She ambled down the hospital corridors, taking her time, as if she were visiting a museum. She passed medical students in their apple-green uniforms, crisp and new. Right there, in another wing, Tomás and Rosa had been born. It was an incredibly difficult birth: the doctor had slid her greased-up hands inside Lucía’s cervix and massaged it in a certain way designed to put pressure on the sides, to help dilation, to ease the babies’ passage. It was a painful method, but effective in eighty percent of cases. Lucía couldn’t endure it. She asked them to cut her open. She’d already suffered enough with the pregnancy. Housing two children in one body, she thought at the time, was a forced and unnatural thing. She would open her eyes in the middle of the night, feel her tight, swollen belly, the movement inside, and think: aliens have taken up residence in my body.

Afterwards, once they were out of her, she completely changed her tune. “Very few mammals only give birth to one offspring at a time,” she began to repeat at regular intervals. As the years passed, she convinced herself of her body’s wisdom. By her mid-forties, she wouldn’t have been able to face a second pregnancy, but fortunately she didn’t need to in order to prove that having two children was the perfect measure of motherhood. More was boastful. Fewer was stingy. She was also well-positioned statistically: just a couple of points above American women, who had 1.8 children on average, and a couple of points below Latina women, who had 2.2.

“You can’t have such rigid opinions on everything,” a former colleague said to her, back then, at a get-together of former colleagues. Carla, her name was. She worked at the University of Texas and her career path, seen in perspective, resembled that of a feral cat clawing its way up a skyscraper. “Why can’t I?” Lucía replied. The others looked at her in silence, bulging with morbid fascination. “Because you sound like one of those women who see motherhood as the primary, hypertrophic drive of female existence,” Carla retorted. Lucía looked at her, expecting her to elaborate further, but Carla simply added, “It’s not a good look.” Lucía replied, “Anyway, it wasn’t an opinion, just a close analysis of myself.” “Anyway,” said Carla, “how is it possible to have 1.8 children?”

The others laughed, their teeth all smeared with salmon and cream cheese, olive tapenade and pâté. Sickly tongues. Poisonous eyes.

 



A sentimental love song, thought Lucía. 
A roadside motel with blinking neon lights

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